I made a bold move thinking it would dramatically change how I go about living my life. I thought that I’d be more determined to work on myself and actually achieve something, whether its a degree or a new job, or even moving across the country.
Either way, I still feel alone. The more I think about my decision, the more I realize that it’s for your benefit and not mine. You need someone who is way more put together than I am, I felt like I was bringing you down.
I miss you, friend. I know it won’t be a while until you want to talk to me again, but I’m always thinking about you and hoping that you’re okay.
I wish that I had all the answers, but sadly I don’t.
I thought I was smart - I thought I was right I thought it better not to fight - I thought there was a Virtue in always being cool - so when it came time to Fight I thought I’ll just step aside and that the time would Prove you wrong and that you would be the fool -
I don’t know where the sun beams end and the star Lights begins it’s all a mystery
Oh to fight is to defend if it’s not Now than tell me when would be the time that you would stand up And be a man - for to lose I could accept but to surrender I just wept and regretted this moment - oh that I - I Was the fool
I don’t know where the sun beams end and the star Lights begins it’s all a mystery And I don’t know how a man decides what right for his Own life - it’s all a mystery
Cause I’m a man not a boy and there are things You can’t avoid you have to face them when you’re not prepared To face them - If I could I would but you’re with him now it’d do no good I should have fought him but instead I let him - I let Him take you -
I don’t know where the sun beams end and the star Lights begins it’s all a mystery And I don’t know how a man decides what right for his Own life - it’s all a mystery
